MJ

Where do I even begin?

2011-07-08T12:51:00.004+08:00

Hello there to what few loyal readers I have. Lol. If you don't already know, I have another blog (a new one), which is http://floatingcoffins.blogspot.com/. Yeah, do visit. Think I'll most probably be blogging there now. Thank you! :D Take care, have a good Friday and great weekend!

With love
Maisarah Jeffrey

Neverending

2011-06-29T13:16:00.014+08:00

Hey. I have long left my blog to rust and entangled in spiderwebs. Lol. So dramatic. -.- I kept a written diary because I had personal issues, and I did not want to divulge information here. And please ignore my previous old posts. Heavy stuff. Irritating shit seriously. Lol!

Anyway, yeah, I've been swell. Pretty good. Been going to school. Only missed school three times. Haha! Missed a test once. "Struggling" with final year project (fyp). Doing nothing much. Slacking.

And life's good. My sister finally came back home! NO, she didn't run away. She was in Germany for some school stuff. 6 weeks. Damn fucking long I tell you. And, surprisingly, I missed her alot. Cried and shit. Weird... Lol. Never thought I'd miss her that much... Besides that, am taking things as they come. I had some guy troubles a few months back. But then, I just decided to not worry too much. Even if I never get married or whatever shit, I don't care. I like my solitude anyway. Been single for 20 years. I can go for twenty more. Bullfuckingshit to "love". Overrated shit.

On the lighter side, I quit smoking and self mutilation. Though I did have this strong temptation to get tattoos and drink. :/ Oh well. This too shall pass? Yeah... How are you guys holding up? Getting into trouble? I'd like to hear all about it. :D Drop me a mail if you want to (mayolee-xoxo@live.com.sg). For the subject, please mention it's not spam or virus. Or I won't open it otherwise. Lol. Take care guys.

With love,
Maisarah Jeffrey

Word of the day

2010-05-21T07:50:00.002+08:00

Either I woke up on the wrong side of the bed orrrrr I'm possessed.

I can't believe this. I actually swore in the morning. It's not the first time but it has been a looooonnngg time since I actually swear on a FRIDAY morning. That's like bullshit. My day is ruined. I hate today. I effing hate it. I had constipation. And I didn't get to shit and now I'm having a bad stomachache. SHIT YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Damn this. Damn you. Pissed off like hell now. I feel like murdering someone. Don't talk to me.

Fucking off,
Maisarah Jeffrey

Unbruised

2010-05-18T22:07:00.006+08:00

I have deserted you online diary. You were once something I turned to when my life turned to crap. But there were stories too personal to be written here. I apologise. But I'm back now, and that's what matters... right?

Only one important thing lies unspoken:

I fell in love.

I liked him. Then I liked him alot. And today, I decided to love him. :) I have been very happy lately because of him, and I love it. It's awesome to be in love. But, love is the root and end of all problems. Agreed? All in favour say 'ai'. :D (No pun intended.)

Gonna sleep now. Goodnight goons.

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Ambitions

2010-04-29T19:46:00.001+08:00

I wanted to be a doctor,
So I operated on myself.

NHA

2010-03-21T01:17:00.003+08:00

Hello suckers! >:D

Haven't had much time to blog cause I have been pretty busy with work. And I have developed a crush on my colleague, a foreigner. He is super cute! :D I wish I could just spend more time with him everyday. :/

ANYWAYS, made alot of new friends and stuff. Almost one month work already. The first day of work was definitely smack dead. This is my very first time working, fyi. It's cool though. All the people are nice. But recently, I heard many will be quitting. Depressing. One of my closest friend is one of them, and I broke down when she texted me. Haha! Kinda stupid. But that's how much I treasure our friendship, so to speak.

I learnt abit of cashiering. Thrilling new experience but deadly. And I am so freaking tired right now. Wah lau! Okay, dudes, see you later. Take care, and have a nice life.

Yours truly,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Fuckin' chain letters

2010-03-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

I dislike with all my heart, chain letters.

It's stupid, moronic and untrue. And yet, people can still forward them. Usually chain letters say something like "If you don't forward this mail, a girl will come and kill you at midnight!!!" DUDEEEEE! ANYONE can say that. And isn't it up to God to decide when you die, not some FUCKING letter?! Fuck ass. Unless of course you don't believe in God. Then it's a different thing entirely.

I spent more than half my day sleeping. Damn. Too lazy to blog anymore... OH! If any of you know of an apartment to rent for 3 people, please contact me. Thank you.

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

The "greater good" of Sameness

2010-03-04T08:51:00.004+08:00

There's one thing that all of us are not immune to: complaning.

All we ever do is complain, complain, complain. It kind of bugs me. When the weather is hot, we complain "Why not cold sia? So hot!". When it's cold "Why so cold?" Stupid right?

We are all equals - most of us. We're born physically the same, two eyes, two hands, etc etc etc. But why are some people more successful than the others? Because they work harder! DUH! Please don't complain that you're stupid or whatever crap, cause you're not. You're just freaking lazy that's what. Unless of course you're mentally challenged or something. Okay, lol, that is just mean. I'm not saying they are stupid... You know what I mean. Anyway, even mentally and physically disabled people can be more successful than us. I saw on TV, this woman who had no hands, was able to fulfil her dream of becoming a pilot. Which was super awesome. This was last year or last 2 years. I forgot what her name was. But, make her your inspiration or motivation. I want to do so many things with my life, but it's like I haven't done any of them. Some of my aspirations include are: getting a license and learning to play the drums. But this is the only two main important ones. And maybe fulfilling my childhood dream to be a doctor.

I'm not perfect. I want to save lives to compensate for all those I have taken away. I didn't kill anyone, don't take this literally. I meant it in the terms of like taking away someone's hope, pulling people down, verbally abusing someone. Example: "you suck at doing that. I do it better than you". I make them feel hopeless. My brother is a constant victim of my abuse. I did to him what my parents did to me when I was young. It's all a vicious cycle of violence. I hope I don't continue doing this to my children...

Man, I got alot more things to say, but I guess that's it for today. Before I end this note, I urge all of you to be wary of how your actions can affect other peoples' lives. Thanks, and have a great day! God bless. :D

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

She broke down and cried

2010-02-28T21:53:00.004+08:00

Tonight I learnt:
There is more to life than just to love.

All my life I have been looking for love. But I discovered that there are more important things in life than just to limit it to finding one person to spend your life with. There are more important things like animal rights. I learned that by watching Happy Feet; the penguin with blue eyes. It's more than an animation about a penguin that loves to dance. It's about penguins who suffer because WE - humans - catch fish for our own pleasures. WE are self centered, selfish, ignorant fools who destroyed natures' balance. WE ARE OUR PROBLEM!

God gave us everything. But it was never enough. Water is never enough. Food is never enough. Everything was never enough. We failed to notice the small things that was given to us. We failed to notice how lucky we are for everything we have. Instead, we complain. I'm so sick of this. I'm so sick and tired of us all. Why can't we just be happy? We are all the same. Why can't we get along? Why?

All these questions go unanswered. I have so many things to ask. And no one seems to know how to answer them. Only God knows. "What am I meant to do? Why do I feel more than I need to? Who am I meant to be? Is death similar to when we go to sleep? Am I going to suffer in the afterlife? Have all my sins been forgiven? Can I make a difference?" I am dying to know... But no one person can know everything. Patience is a virtue. And last but not least, repent, because the end is near. These tsunamis and earthquakes are getting more common. Open your eyes and see!

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Any more questions you wanna ask?

2010-02-08T23:04:00.004+08:00

Is there a Heaven and Hell for animals?
Can animals be homosexuals?

I have more questions to ask, but I don't remember. HAHA! Today morning sucked! But the day got better. I am finally learning to accept the truth. :'D I love the both of you! May you live in bliss and happiness. :)

With love,

Maisarah Jeffrey

ps, UT3 sucks!

Beg to Differ

2010-01-27T08:58:00.003+08:00

Debate of the day:
Flies vs. mosquitoes

Lol! I can never tell the difference. Okay, I can. But that's not the point. Anyway, which is worse the skinny ass anorexic bitch mosquitoes or the fat ass flies? Flies don't suck our blood right? It's the skinny asses that suck our blood but never get fat. It's like humans. Sort of. Cause we see the skinny people eating alot but never get fat, cause they have higher metabolism rate. So... this means I love fat people! HAHA! No link. But I love fat people. :DD

Okay, Sunday went to the library with my sister and borrowed some Liverpool books. Oh yeah! Monday, skipped school. Yesterday was quite fun. Today, skipped school. LOL! My whole Entrepreneurship group skipped school to do the decorations for the booth. Kind of exciting. Haha! Okay, I should probably help with the stuff. Toodles.

xoxo

Maisarah Jeffrey

Pile of Poo

2010-01-23T02:51:00.004+08:00

You are the world's most talented liar. I even fell in love with your bullshit. Good job! :)

Dipshit. Lol. I can't sleep. So I'm just gonna rant out almost everything here. 2 hours 53 minutes ago was Friday. I disobeyed my parents, but got lucky. I went to my cousin's house, cause she wanted me to help out with her homework. Then my dad was like "jjdnznuwjnznjbjzuh!" You know. And I was like, "wtf!" I did try to help my brother, but he didn't appreciate my efforts and I'm on the verge of giving up on him. And I'm not allowed to help my cousin? My super close cousin since I was 3? It's fucking ridiculous. It's not like I'm meeting with some stranger on the net to have sex or whatever crap. IT'S MY COUSIN! Goddamnit. Ah, whatever.

My dad was sleeping when I got home, so I went out and texted him to say I was going to my cousin's. Then blah blah blah. Reached my cousin's house, ate late lunch at KFC. :D Then went to Montreal Green to play on the swings and take pictures. Lol. I had fun. Kinda like a bonding moment. But reality fucked it up. My mom told me to be back by 9 o'clock. So we went back to her house, tried to help with her homework, but I don't get it either. I did try though... The worst part was saying goodbye. Pretty fucked up. I wish I didn't have to leave. This is by far the dumbest shit I've been through. Jordan, please cum shoot my face. LOL! Nasty. Just kidding.

AND THE WORST PART IS, I went home and it's only my brother at home. What. The. Fuck. I felt stabbing some duck. Okay, maybe not. But still. Stupid fucking shit. And, mini convo with Mr Matrix two hours ago. Fucked up shit. But you know, whatever. These are my last tears for you - I hope. I felt like hammering nails into my heart. My heart still feels uneasy. Feels like there's nothing there... :'( But, whatever you know. Doesn't matter. "Other fish in the sea". The lamest love quote ever. But it's a straightforward meaning. WHATEVER! Lol. Okay, I feel so much better now. That was a lie.

Broken hearted,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Broken Heart Facade

2010-01-21T17:19:00.006+08:00

Me without you,

Is like Winnie without Pooh. ♥

Today was fine, I guess. I woke up to my family's quarrels. No need for alarm clocks. :/ Every morning, have to quarrel. Like ritual sia. So, I skipped school. I did shower and accompanied my sister to the mrt station and helped her top up her card. She didn't know I skipped anyway. xD Then went to Civic Centre. Then to post mail. Then went back home the "back door" way through Civic Centre. Then went to school library. LOL! No life, seriously no life.

And I messaged like 7 people to see if they went to school or not. If not, can accompany me. But all my friends very guai. Lol. Not like me. But my lao gong also skipped class. Heh. Then we went to McDonalds, had breakfast. From 10 plus to 12 plus we were at Mac. xD Then went to Guardian. Then went to pasar malam. Nothing there. Don't go, waste of time. Then went to Civic Centre library. Read the magazine and newspaper I bought. My horoscope wrote alot of nice things about my "relationships". But I'm not hopeful. :(

After that, went home. Watched "He's just not that into you". Good movie. A must watch. :) Anyway, I hope I get a date on Valentines' Day! I'm so tired of staying at home. I don't care if I hang out with my bestfriends. I wanna go out! Oh, and maybe watch the movie "Valentines' Day". Looked like a good movie. :DD Okay, I better go shower. Take care all. And I love you boy.

Yours truly,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Geek gathering

2010-01-20T09:52:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was one of the best nights of my life! :D

Finally visited my cousin after all these months. Omg! I can't believe my 15-year-old cousin is taller than me. And her younger sister in primary 6 is also taller than me. Am I that short? Lol! In the words of Si On "doesn't matter". Whatever, you know. I still love them the same. :D

And Fahmy gave me brownies. Haven't eaten them yet. I wanna skip school, go home and eat the brownies cause I feel like it. :) I hate school. Today is pretty sucky. Sibei boring. Guai lan. LOL! I don't swear alot in reality, this is compensation. Not happy? Fuck away short dicks.

I decided not to skip school today, cause Desmond said next week then skip. LOL! Ohohoh! I'm having my allowance today. Will go out buying stuff. Muahaha! Money is the source of life and happiness! Ad I will buy Happy Meal. :DDD

Okay, I will leave you to whank off.

Peace out,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Living in THE MATRIX

2010-01-19T12:33:00.013+08:00

I DREAMT ABOUT TORRES! :D

Not only did I dream of him, I kissed him! It was so heavenly and it felt sooo real! Why did I have to wake up? Stupid sh!t. I want to live in my dreams forever and never wake up. :/

Living in the world of dreams. Then I messaged Darel. I said to him, maybe he was having the same dream too. Maybe he dreamt of me! I would be so happy. Lol! Okay, we can only meet in the "world of dreams". Good enough for me. Aww man, I want to dream about him again. But this is not the first time I dreamt of him... Heh, obsessed... But I can't help it if I'm in love with him. And I added 3 things to my "Before I die, I must..." list:

Learn Spanish
Go to Spain
Take pictures with Torres
Watch one of his soccer matches live :D

If the world really ends in 2012, FUCK IT! Lol! Fuck my life. I missed the chance when he came to Singapore. I deserve to be raped. I am such a disgrace. Stupid fucking loser. GODDAMNIT! Fuck it seriously. I am going to see him before I die one way or another. Even if it means breaking the law. And I mean it - shitholes.

Yours fucking truly,
Maisarah Jeffrey

ps, kiss my goddamn ass.

Only 10% of the things I hate

2010-01-18T14:02:00.004+08:00

I hate it when I wake up and realise my dream wasn't real.
I hate it when my friends are unhappy and I don't know how to cheer them up.
I hate it when I spend time with my bestfriends and I miss them immediately after I leave them.
I hate it when I am being nice to someone and they treat me like shit.
I hate it when I'm hungry.
I hate being broke.
I hate going to school.
I hate it when I vent my anger on others because of someone else's fault.
I hate it when I don't know what people are thinking about.
I hate it when someone walks behind me.
I hate it when I'm so angry I punch the wall.
I hate abusing myself.
I hate abusing others.
I hate people.
I hate it when my siblings fight.
I hate it more when my parents fight.
I hate it when my dad scolds the rest of the family because of one family member's mistake.
I hate feeling useless.
I hate boys.
I hate people who lie to me.
I hate it insults.
I hate egoistic people.
I hate people who swear.
I hate people who talk too much.
I hate people who ask me too many questions.
I HATE YOU!

Ernie!

2009-11-24T10:21:00.013+08:00

AHHHHHHH! Hello hello hello! ARGHHHHH!

My life feels completed! I finally bought the Ernie plushie I want!!! HAHAHA! So happy. That was yesterday. I wanted that thing for so long already. :DD Next time buy piglet plushie. Heh heh heh. If got time, I camwhore with the Ernie. ;D

Today gonna cut hair. Woohoo. I like spend alot... Shit... Later no money for school. HAHA! Again. Always like this. Anyway, if y'all don't know what Ernie is. This is Ernie.

Lots of love,

Maisarah Jeffrey

PS, Blogger is so screwed!

I'm working, LIKE A DOG.

2009-11-19T00:02:00.011+08:00

GOOD MORNING! :) Wanted to blog yesterday but was too tired to. Cause I was working! :DD Awesome time. First time working. Unless the training time in McDonalds is counted. LOL! That was during fasting time. And they said I was "inefficient". Shit them la. xD After that, they kept calling me several times, I didn't pick up. MUAHAHA! Evil.

Anyway, yesterday was one of the best nights of my life. Vivian, Li Ling's friend, was like a big sister to me. Even though I'm older than her! :O She helped me carry my laptop when I was eating curry puff bought with Li Ling's money. (Li Ling, I.O.U. 5 bucks!) And when I was left behind, she would pull me to the front. Making sure I was in her sight. Omg. I'm sucha disgrace for 18 year olds. :S

Anyway, she is a very nice person. :) Then we started working, but had to split up. I was at Level 3 and they were gonna be on Level 2. Working with strangers. I didn't think I could get along well with them. Cause they didn't look like the people I usually hang out with. Lol. They look like the people I usually avoid. Heh heh.

But, intro intro. RP students also. Year 1s. Awesome. We got along more than I expected. Like we knew each other for years. And one of the girl's name is Farina. When Elfonson told me the name, I was hoping that she would be my primary school friend. But she isn't. Maybe I should just stop looking and hoping to find my Farina... ANYWAY the guys were awesome. Super friendly. I got lots more to blog. But I'm super lazy. And I have no pictures with me. So... yeahhh. HAHA!

Sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

007 ★

2009-11-17T15:45:00.006+08:00

Hey hey hey! :D

Wanted to blog about yesterday this morning but got too caught up in Facebook. LOL! Uh... OH! Yesterday was Cognitive module. During lunch, almost the whole class cabut ~~bulu kaki~~ class. Haha. Then only left 7 people. Awesome!

Then today is Creative Concept. Awesome awesome! About sex and virginity. Whether it is important to save or not. Haha. Things were going really well. But something happened between my team members. Couldn't get along, so moved to other team. Slightly ruined my mood and abit stressful. But, went to lunch forget about it already. Lol! Good right? So if you tell me secrets, I will forget about it almost immediately. And we changed teams.

Yeah, don't know why I'm so happy now. Maybe cause lao gong is showing me pictures of hot guys. Eh eh eh! xDD HAHA! But I still love my kiwi. My sexy sexy kiwi!

Lotsa love,

Maisarah Jeffrey

So sick (of love songs) ♥

2009-11-11T15:04:00.011+08:00

OMG OMG OMG! Haha! Long time no blog. So sad. Anyways, was inspired by today's module (Web and New Media Communication) to blog. Cause we're doing about blogs. Sexaye! HAHA!

Anyway, yesterday's lesson (Creative Concept) was super awesome. Super cool. And the presentation was great. :D And I won tickets to Singapore Idol. I'm going there today! OH YEAH! Tabitha gave out 10 pairs of tickets and I won 2 tix. I've never felt luckier. But I think I'm really lucky if that thing happen. Only my lao gong knows. Right Li Ling? :P

ANDDDD, recently, everyone's getting SICK SICK SICK. So sad. I haven't fully recovered yet but it's better than 2 weeks ago. Lol.

Oh yeah, pumpkiwi, take care alright. Or I will stalk you. Lol. I LOVE YOU ALOT!

Peace out,

Maisarah Jeffrey

I'M BACK - with a vengeance!

2009-10-12T13:48:00.007+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

Haven't blogged for a long long longggggg time. LOL! Alot of things happened. But I kinda got bored with blogger. I have been on Facebook like... all the time. Haha. Yeahhh. New semester, new class, new friends. Kinda fun. Everyone's really friendly and we like get along well. Well enough anyway. Haha. :D

Anyways, Weiming invited us to go to Night Safari for Halloween. And it's kinda cool. And I'm dressing up for Halloween! WHOO! It's a surprise. And it's purely for fun. ANYWAYS, alot of things REALLY happened during this time period. Asses. Lol. Okay, there's nothing much to talk about.

With lots of love,

Maisarah Jeffrey

Happy happy!!!

2009-08-13T15:53:00.001+08:00

My dear wife mai is officially two months pregnant!!!
I AM GOING TO BE A DAD!!!
Happy!!!
It was fate that i have to propose to mai today.
Hope she will agree marry me.

"The blue sky and white clouds be my witness,
No matter how hard life and the situation may be,
I will stay alive for your sake."

Yours sincerely,
Leona Tan

Battling my eyelids

2009-08-13T08:22:00.002+08:00

Good morning starshine,

the Earth says "hello"! :D

It's Maths today. Seems like not many people are coming. There's only seven people here - including me! Mein gott. Partial la, partial la. Wah lau. I didn't want to come today. I asked my mom already. But then my dad will kill me if I don't go. So here I am... in school...

Okay. There's now thirteen people. Lol. Aiya. Cannot partial already. Sian. HAHA! Anyways, I had this creepy dream. There was a possessed woman. She looked like a pontianak. But with short hair. And a pet dog, instead of a cat... I can still remember her face...

Damnit! Si On is still not here today... :'( I die a little more inside...

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

The Beginning of the End

2009-08-12T10:04:00.001+08:00

Dear world,

This will be the shared blog between Tan Li Ling (♥) and me. Woohoo! Anyways, today is Science. I'm seeing stars. It's bloody confusing. And not to mention, we changed groups. And Si On is also not here. No one to say 'Allah give you pisang'. :(

SAD! And very super sian! Like want to die.... Speaking of death. The deaths of the two RP students is shocking. Wow. People keep saying it's suicide. I don't know. But if it's really suicide, then I have to say I really envy them. It's so easy for them to just leave. No matter how badly I want to leave, I don't think I'll ever do it. It's a straightway ticket to Hell!

I don't know if you believe in the afterlife but for me, I do. Yesterday, my mom told me we will receive the same consequence as how we treat our bodies. It made me regret doing the things I did. You know what it is. I don't have to say it here. Not only have I sinned from hurting others. But I did it to myself. :'(

Not only that, these days, I get angry for the most mundane things. Like if someone doesn't wash the dishes. It's stupid! And what's worse is that I cuss. It's so sad...

ANYWAYS, sorry the first post had to be an emotional one.

Yours sincerely,

Maisarah Jeffrey

ps. If I didn't link you, please leave a tag. Love ya. Take care! :D